There are some bad days in life ... and then there are the really bad ones!!
So here I am, with nothing better to do at the end of a forgettable day than sit alone in front of my spastic laptop in the 15'x12' rat-hole of a hostel room that I'm forced to pay almost 5 grand a month for, than to ponder aimlessly on the day gone by while trying to write something worthwhile even though the mind is a total blank... and in general, to feel wretched!! Its been one of those days when there was nothing obviously wrong, but somehow everything felt that way - and I do mean EVERYTHING!! Went through the day trying to suppress the irresistible urge to wring the neck of any unfortunate soul who might have stepped on my toes, to shout at the slightest provocation, to be really mean to someone just for the hell of it... in short, to make everyone else's life miserable too!!
But I didn't do any of that - living and working in a "civilized" atmosphere has its drawbacks at times - which probably explains why I still feel as wretched as I was during the day, even more. Maybe venting all that bad energy, even if in a negative way, can help sometimes!! After all, being selfish at times can't really be that bad, can it?? Hell, half of the world keeps doing it day in and day out!! So why shouldn't I give it a try sometime?!
Well, I did warn everyone and anyone who cared to listen to keep a safe distance quite early in the day... guess people did listen to it after all, much to my eventual disappointment and this present "blank" state of mind!! Thought writing might help a bit, but its even more frustrating, now that I can't think of anything even remotely interesting... Hell, after the kinda entries that I've written so far here, what I was hoping for was a humorous piece for a change, not another round of letting off steam!! Guess that wasn't to be this time either...
Well, maybe some sleep would do me good. IF I can sleep, of course. After all, the day isn't over yet... lets see!!
Note: Kindly do not judge the author from the useless piece of shit that this piece has proved to be ... scroll down a bit to the previous entries and maybe your opinion will change!!
Note: If you do decide to judge - I don't give a shit, you #&@$!! heh heh heh (now at least that felt somewhat better!!)
3 comments:
LOL! Now, that WAS funny! A damn good humorous piece. Of course, I agree I can relate to the post, two hundred percent! Doc, cant stop laughing. Good, feels good :D
PS - More posts like this one, PLEASE!! :))
U know Anurag,
U really r sumthng- I mean, thr wasnt a need to write those notes at d end bt if u hdnt written them, it wudnt hv done...
bcos tht really adds to the fun- element !!!
bt tell me 1 thng why wr u in such a mood...
n does it really help swearng, etc...I mean ?
nyway, u better cheer urself up - cos lots of ppl around u must find u a likeable one n love to spend tm wth u , whn given a chance...
yes it was a forgettable day as you correctly said as we were warned quite early in the day. Maybe its time to take a break and do some introspection as to what you really want to do make yourself happy now rather than sitting in the 15' by 12'room of yours and getting frustrated.
And believe me its absolutely all right to be selfish at times. You are a nice person . Hope you will have a nice weekend. Maybe you can spend sometime with nature as you generally like to do .
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